johns journal

Three years ago today was the day we lost him. I still can't believe it. He was the most invincible man and extraordinary doctor I knew, but more then that he was my Dad. There's still so much I want to tell him and even find myself doing things to make him proud. He was tough in life, a se…

There are many reasons why there is five years between Gideon and Bo, but one of the largest was the passing of my Father. My heart sunk into such a deep dark abyss that I couldn't imagine bringing another baby into the world with such a cloud over my head. The world lost its color and the grie…

Can't believe its been two years since we said goodbye to Dad, the most invincible, smartest, and caring doctor you'll ever meet. I've learned and grieved so much since then and yes still the sadness remains, its become a part of me. I remain shocked at how a supposed veteran of faith …

My Dad, who I miss everyday still has an ever present influence on me. Some of the strangest things trigger memories, one being his amazing culinary skills! My stepmother actually made me a cookbook with his recipes, best gift ever. So this is my third round with his frittata, eggs are tricky and s…

One year ago today my sister, lil brother and I lost our father to cancer. An extremely rare and bizarre aggressive disease took his life in one year's time, even stumping my father, a brillant physician. In fact, he was the epitome of life and served my small town in NJ for over 30 years, leav…

We are fast approaching the end of this deployment cycle, yippeee!!! I am a hopeless romantic when it comes to these situations, tearing up at the mere mention of reuniting family with deployed spouses, especially when it comes to kiddos! Our reunion will resemble these photos come Monday or Tuesda…

Third times a charm, right? My mom usually says bad things happen in threes and my dad absolutely loved prime numbers like three; its traditionally the magic number of attempts for God to catch my attention. This time it involved mustard seeds and Uniqlo (Japan's version of the Gap).My faith te…